Thank you so much! I will definitely keep posting more and keep updating you as and when I feel I have made progress. I might start a new thread depending on what comes up. A fact about me, I am a skincare/beauty fan so I know quite a bit about that. If the pores in the skin become clogged, we apply AHA/BHA on it so all the gunk comes out. Then we see how it surfaces and then deal with it by applying proper products. I feel that I have applied something similar inside me by reaching out for help. The gunk is coming out 🙂 Today I felt a lot of scenes from my younger days come up(random) where I remembered a lot of yelling at home. I used to stand and watch and not get involved because if I did I would be yelled at too. I don’t remember why they are coming up now but they are specific instances of shouting while I hid in the corner and cried or stared listlessly. Once I put my head in my tiny hands of age 4/5 and sat trying to make it go away. Still processing this. I have to see what is it and how to gently change it. But I am not alone, I can reach out here and I will. Thanks a ton for being there, for listening.