Hi Anita,

Thank you for your additional ideas, they are very helpful and I plan to move forward with them. I’m not sure now how to stop focusing on the last man, my desire to feel heard, loved, and accepted seems still to be tied to him. I feel embarrassed to admit it, but I still long for that person to come back, for him to continue to see me in that light, to be there for me. He told me that I’m the only woman he’s told these dark things about himself (I don’t know if it’s true, but he does seem genuine when he said so), and in some ways, I feel a sort of kinship with him because of it. I truly don’t think he’s an evil person, as you’ve mentioned, but definitely not very self aware and a dreamer also, like me.

Right now, I can’t seem to feel like the connection I felt with him is possible with anyone else. It’s like he holds the key to that part of me, and it feels “wrong” that things are no longer that way. However, then I question myself, do I really want to be with this person, now that I know everything that I do? And I can’t say for sure that I know the answer to the question. I feel everything began and ended too quickly for me to process “what could have been”. Part of me feels like there’s a possibility in time we could find a way, and part of me feels like not only is it unlikely, but that I shouldn’t want that. What are your thoughts on the matter, and about him and the possibility of us ever being together in the future?