Thank you so much for responding to me and you kind help.

I think what im trying to say is loving him again- I got sucked into loving him again which I can find hard – I have anxiety in relationships which I try hard to not effect me- I get insecure, blame him for not showing me attention, think im giving him love and he’s not giving me any back, I know I sounds like a someone that is super needy but I guess I don’t know if its me or him. If im telling my self he doesn’t love me just to make it easier on myself by pushing him away. I just read a blog on this site which totally made sense to me that know therapist had ever suggested.

https://tinybuddha.com/blog/why-you-feel-anxious-in-relationships-and-how-to-stop/ THIS IS 100 PERCENT ME – ALL OF IT………………. maybe this is why I feel the way I do…. im so confused!

He always tell me he loves me, he serious about “us” that’s he wants me to go away and have the best time, that this isn’t the end…. He has a great way of dealing with it, he so so calm, and im the total opposite – stress head!

Thank you

Sophie