I wish I can give you a answer with the situation you’re in, in fact I know exactly how you feel. I have feelings for my close long distance friend, she knows of my feelings for her we met online a year ago. We haven’t met in person yet I am planning to visit her next year in the fall. we are only just friends, she did tell me “We could have a relationship in the future, who knows what will happen.” I decided it is for the best for us to only remain friends, the distance is the main issue and us not knowing who we are in person. We could be good friends or maybe it”ll become more, we are close and we both truly deeply care for each other.

She is always on my mind, everyday I wake up and check my phone (text messages, social media) daily. she means so much to me even through we talked on FaceTime a few times and mainly text often she been a wonderful friend to me that help me move on from my past so much that I can never thank her enough.

I keep myself busy, work, hobbies and try to hang out with friends and family. plan local trips or visit old friends and hopefully make new friend along the way. My obsession  never ends, I still wonder how she is or what she is doing. I try to keep the space so I won’t come off needy yet I still can not help to ask her “How’re you?” or send her funny gifs or cute photos of dogs.

the reason why you’ve been anxious about your relationship its because you don’t see her everyday, you’re not by her presently and you worry if this relationship will survive due to the distance. The only advice I can give you is to communicate with her about this, I have already talk to my close friend about my situation with my feelings for her. She know I want to move on with my feelings for her because I don’t want to hold on to a fantasy that may never happen. She only sees me as a friend, if she wants more then she has to tell me. As of now I must accept what this is a long distance friendship. As you must accept your relationship is long distance and you both have to fight it to keep it strong until you two decide to live together.