Dear Jay:

The last few words in your thread: “the need to disappear”.

Earlier in your post you wrote: “I’ve been doing alot of covering”- a lot of disappearing, that is. You have already been disappearing in some significant ways, covering your hurt, fear, keeping it inside, hidden.

What you’ve been considering at the end of your post is disappearing more, isn’t it? Taking the disappearing to the extreme.

There is another solution:

Don’t disappear and cover. Instead, Appear and Uncover. Tell more about the part or parts of you that have been hidden for too long, will you?

anita