Anita- I should have said everything is better and calmed down now. We did get help for my son, We worked things out in our relationship, my mother has been gone for a long time now and i have came for not only forgive her but understand how she could become this way, through learning about her child hood. I am better now myself concerning the issues that came with that. The problem is, I have no idea who i am, what i like and dislike, and it is a confusing journey to be on. I also feel like i want to share my story with others who have been through the same thing to help them through it. Although i know i can not really help them, but more or less guide them and tell them to listen to their intuition and gut feelings. I was there, and i wish i had some guidance through those dark times. The problem with that is nothing FEELS right. I thought about writing a book maybe?

But as for discovering who i am is there any advice you could give me on where to start? Thank you for your reply.