Dawn

I am afraid of failing and being alone. My divorce hit me so hard as I am goal oriented and failure was never in my vocabulary when growing up, so it still isn’t.

My spiritual life is non existant. I am unsure if agnostic or atheist. As with all things it seems; not really standing for much at this time. I want to try meditation but I have such a “hamster wheel” mind that it never shuts off. What podcasts do you use or apps?

I am leaning towards the relationship is not going to work out. I will talk to her (most likely on Thursday) and will see if she can commit more time. She has said in the not too distant past that this is all she can do at this time. I know at times she feels she cannot give me what I need and that seems to be time. When we were in the long distance relationship, this wasn’t a problem.

Life seems to be very difficult at this time.