Anita,

One more thing, if its kind of hard for you to understand my point of view I will give you an example.

Imagine being 35/40 year old, you’re living a very very very successful life. You have tons of money, tons of friends, your family loves you, you’re doing a  job that you truly have a passion about, you’re basically living your “dream” life / the ideal life of an individual, but … you do not have anyone to share it with. Imagine how lonely it is. It really is sad. I think the saddest people in the world are lonely people. Lonely people on the outside they do not seem lonely but for me, I think i have a gift of seeing lonely people.

I never say anything to those people but deep down inside, I pity them. How can someone live their life like that? Lonely people in this case are not literally as in people that doesn’t have anyone in their life, but just normal people. I have a friend, he’s 23, doesn’t have a degree in college, doing physical labour work for more than 12 hours, he spends his weekends clubbing and just drinking trying to mask his loneliness, his girlfriend is a 55 year old women who is divorced or maybe even currently cheating on her husband. For others, he seems normal, but in my eyes – he is probably the loneliest people I have ever encountered in my life. Another friend of mine, changes boyfriend every month like she changes her clothes, that is .. also sad to me. I sound very judgemental right now, I am very well aware.

I am afraid that I am slowly turning into those “lonely” people that I always pity now that my life is a mess.

-Mina