Oh its been over 3 years since I have been split up with my ex husband.

I’ve talked to my boyfriend about this and he has been so supportive. He’s talked to me let me cry it out and just loved me. I just felt like I had to tell him. We have a great connection and our communication is wonderful. I feel like I can tell him anything and I don’t have to worry about his response.

I feel like what drew me to my boyfriend is more on who he is than what he looks like. We have’t had a fight or anything. We openly discuss things and talk them out. We both come to an agreement or we apologize if someone took something the wrong way or its not what we meant.

Here lately I just havent been feeling anything. I think I have assumed that a boyfriend was gonna make me happy all the time? And its not. I have these fleeting moments of happiness like when we both crack a joke or pick fight on each other or when we kiss. I have no ill feelings towards him and its not like he annoys me. Sure his “flaws” bother me but its nothing that i cant handle and its nothing like red flag status.

I’m so afraid that my feelings have changed because I don’t want to break up with him. I want to be with him. I know I love him. But I just cant shake this nagging feeling in my gut that is ALWAYS there.