Dear Katie:

I enjoyed reading your posts, I like the way you express yourself.

You wrote: “I think I had a happy childhood. No one instance of major trauma anyway”

And then you elaborated: your mother has a bipolar disorder and would swing on a monthly basis or so, for as long as you remember, from being “SUPER involved and energetic” with you to being  “easily offended to being cold, withdrawn and removed”-

That by itself is trauma enough to explain your “fear is that he’s just going to completely blank me at any point”, that is, you are afraid that he will do what your mother did (turn “cold, withdrawn and removed).

Don’t you think?

anita