Dear Cruzzie:

What you did in the kitchen, redoing the cookies after a “kitchen meltdown”- is an example of the “calm, collected and together” person that you are. It is not only an appearance. It is who you are in practice, in the kitchen as described here and through many times in your life, it is what kept you going in your studies, before that meltdown. And it is what keeps you going, I believe.

I don’t see this part of you as a mask, definitely not one you should take off. Instead, I see it as a positive strength of yours that you need to supplement with healing and discovery of more of who you are.

anita