Thank you to Catherine, Mark and especially Anita,

I am very grateful to have this space as lately it has been so difficult..i know all too much that staying in grieving is bad..but if anyone relates, im a scorpio and it is like being cut in two..another level of pain. It takes me too long to recover, the emotions are very difficult. I still cant look at a guy in the face.  i really dont want that interaction. Im resentful about it and fearful with good reason. I really dont believe in love much now. I feel very broken and jaded. So..my fears about not having the chance to have a family were not made up. It is likely i will be alone now. I have nothing left that i can find in myself to give. I am focusing completely on my survival..work..selling my apartment. Its so basic when i see other women who have multiple dreams fulfilled at once.