Dear Natasha:

It reads to me that, as you understand it, “the adrenaline (rush)” died down for him. He may still love you, as he claims, but reads to me he got very comfortable with your attachment to him, believing, maybe, that no matter what, you will be with him, so he doesn’t have to try hard. Not as hard as he tried at the beginning.

You wrote: “There are days when I feel like I am too demanding, or that I am just too intense or fierce, cause if I could I would spent every single minute of my life with him”- maybe you have been too demanding, maybe you tried to take “every single minute” of his life and it was unreasonable. I don’t know.

I wish you had better communication with him directly, not through his cousin, that you were very clear about his state of mind regarding the relationship/ breakup with you (whatever the current status in his mind/ your mind). It would be good if there was a … meeting of the minds in this regard.

anita