Dear Zita:

You describe anxiety, ongoing, perpetual fear: “It’s like I am running away from life… I am so afraid to confront my life head on… I keep avoiding it all together.”

“I do not have a why to live..how to do guys find meaning in your life ? what is your ultimate purpose ? please don’t give me vague answers, I need something concrete to hold onto, something tangible”-

I believe that I do know the meaning of living, the why, the purpose: to experience life with the awareness possible for you. This is the only meaning I observe in nature. When you, Zita, are “running away…so afraid to confront (your) life… avoiding it”, you are not aware to the extent possible for you. Living your purpose would be, I believe, to stay (not run away), to practice courage and to confront life.

Other animals have an easier time living their purpose, being aware to the extent possible for them, because they are not capable of self observation and elaborate language that when catches on to anxiety goes wild. So they live their purpose, experiencing life with the awareness possible for them.

anita