I am sure that I’m not waiting for him to return, I know the relationship was not right for me and for the second half of our relationship he did not treat me as he should of. I think I am to blame for accepting this mainly because I didn’t want to loose him from my life, the only time this would change would be if he could sort himself out, but I think this is probably quite unlikely at least for a long time. And I’m not waiting for this to happen.

I think the betrayal and disposable thing come from the fact but I thought he’d been on line before we split and my ex partner before him had also done the same thing. Unfortunately for some people I think online relationships are more disposable as they know there are always more options.

I really do think after our conversation that this was not the case with him until after we split.

I know for most people it doesn’t make sense to be friends but I feel really that is what we were for a while before the split. I don’t want to cause myself further hurt and I know that could happen as the split is still very fresh for me.