I think it would loosen up my anxieties, yes, since as far as i know, even when i was about 11 years old , the question about what would i need to do to help my family, am i capable of doing something…even than that was the thought that i was steering my life  and my energy towards to, even tho i did not now that..i was never really driven by my wishes and desires or interests, and my self esteem was over the years just negatively reinforced by my own thoughs to the point that i really feel uncapable of doing anything right, that i dont know what woud i like from life, and whats best for me….i am trying to reason with myself (my mind) that i can actually do, i can actually make something of my life, but when its time for a decision and action, my reasoning narrows, and my emotions and discouraging thoughs are exploading . , So yeah, i am really scared. And thanks Anita for taking your time , it meant to me a lot