Thank you Amaya. I appreciate your perspective. I understand my anxiety may stem from something rooted deeper. I try to work on it all the time. But sometimes its just so hard when i have the anxiety. Whenever I’m in a relationship, I do open my heart and give the best I can. I don’t really have my father in my life, he would come and go as he pleased and currently we still dont have a connection. He has his own issues and I know they aren’t my fault. But I tend to feel this way anyway. It really hurts me deeper than what i may know or show..that i dont have this relationship with my father. I have tried to reach out so many times, but I’m at the point where its just not helping me and making me feel more sad and neglected. But like in this relationship that just ended, its really hard for me to identify at times whether its me being anxious or if the person is just not doing that much. Which at times I could identify…but often I would just settle for it because I just dont even know…When we broke up he said that im so open and honest and such a great girlfriend… it makes me think then why wouldnt he want me? and it leaves me feeling unworthy…But i understand maybe he isnt ready to be as open and honest with me.. I know that he has struggled with commitment in the past and has other issues that i cant fully explain. It just makes me sad, I responded to him but i told him i dont deserve someone who broke up with me to still try and talk to me at there own convenience. Honestly I feel like I wouldnt have said that to someone in the past because i would be afraid of hurting the other person. But im soooo tired.. of feeling like im giving my all and the other person just gives minimal effort. I am not satisfied with someone who is so surfaced… I need more of a deeper connection. I think often i settle for less and i know deep down what i deserve but than that internal conflict arises. Thank you.