Dear Crown,

Depression , anxiety , PTSD are all names. Its left to your choice with which you want to associate with or not at all. You have pretty much handled everything strong from young age . You are a very strong willed independent person, very proud of you not many will be able to do what you’ve done. So this must not be much difficult to find your way through this. You need time for yourself with no commitments and obligations. Start working on small things first. Set a routine aside for yourself alone including exercise, meditation, yoga, therapy sessions, a hobby project wanting to do since long. Don’t expect or think about results just do it, follow this for a while like few months to a year get used to the routine as some calmness sets in you will start figuring out what you need and what you want. But for all this you need patience , discipline and commitment. Trust in the journey.