Hi Anita. Thank you for your response. I know that I need to try and learn better how to identify what I’m thinking and feeling vs what is actually happening. But then anxiety takes over and clouds my judgement. I try to do meditative practices to relieve some of this anxiety to be able to think more clearly for myself. But often in a relationship it really overwhelms me and I’m afraid what I say may sound absurd or “stupid”. I try to switch to more positive thoughts, but I guess it also depends on the person I’m with?? I felt like because he has low emotion it was harder for me to read what he was thinking. I constantly worry what hes thinking or feeling…

When its comes to my father.. I feel I know … its not my own fault for the way he is… But I think maybe from a young age him leaving and coming as he pleases…affected me deeply and even though I don’t really think about it on a regular basis it…creeps its way in subconsciously and I’m not sure how to find deeper healing in it and not let it affect my judgment or feelings in a relationship. I often think what if my father had been there for me? Would I not be so anxious and insecure in a relationship?

Thank you – Kylee