Hi Anita,

You are totally right but I am trying to work through this emotionally and kind of apply some Buddhist principles to it (I’m a novice at this) about accepting suffering and how suffering is brought on ourselves when we have expectations, and finding a way to have compassion and forgiveness even for those who treat us poorly. I’m trying to be Zen about this shit, lol.

And, I am struggling for sure…

My BIL promised a payment this week. So far nothing has shown up. I’ll give him to Friday and then I’ll contact him. It won’t be the whole amount, but he promised $2,500. Then, I will email him once a month asking for a payment. No doubt my being silent since March means to him that I don’t mind that we are not being repaid. I definitely struggle with being a people pleaser and not wanting to make waves. But I’m also the kind of person when I get pushed too far I get really angry. They are treading on thin ice with me right now.