Dear Mina:

I just googled a few things. I read that South Korea has the highest or second highest suicide rates mostly because of elderly suicide (Wikipedia). Regarding youth suicide, in a Voices of Youth website, from four years ago, it reads: “Korea Advanced Institute of Science and Technology, the country’s most prestigious university, lost four of its students…to suicide. For a high school kid who has been trained to constantly aim for academic excellence, getting into KAIST is a dream come true. But living this dream means a relentless struggle to survive the rigors of a highly competitive environment… ”

You wrote: “Do I have to disappear and end it all for real so people will UNDERSTAND how they should understand their children more? To realise that their children is more important than their pride and money?”

But Mina, I don’t think you can teach parents this lesson by suicide or in any other way. When parents do value their prestige and money more than their children’s feelings and quality of life, then these are their values and nothing will change that. On the other hand, I understand you because you are alive, posting, telling, communicating.

You wrote earlier in your recent post: ” I do not know why am I so angry or to whom am I angry at”. You answered your own questions in the same post, in the first quote I copied from your recent post: you are angry at your parents because  they value their pride and money more than they value you, Mina, your feelings and experience of life. They don’t understand, nor are they trying to understand you.

There is hope, Mina, hope in you communicating and promoting what you value, what you think is most important to you.

anita