Thank you for sharing your dreams, Eliana.

I have been kinda depressed recently, because it will be my ex’s birthday soon and I have been thinking to wish him happy birthday or not.

I remember last year I made a card for him, we had dinner at his favorite restaurant, played a game, and I got him the gift that he’d been wanting for so long. I remember writing in the card hoping we could celebrate every of his birthday in the years to come.  I tried so hard to make that birthday speical and unforgettable.

My friends have been telling me not to contact him to wish him happy birthday. I agree and understand where they are coming from: Getting back in touch will only take me to square one of the recovery.

I really love him. It’s already difficult to go on NC. Now I have to hold the urge not to wish him HB. Deep inside I still can’t believe it’s over.