Hi Anita,

Yes, i guess i can feel vindicated in one way, and bereft in another.

I lost the guy i loved the most, i lost that lovely stupid female loyalty and certainty that i was the one

There is no getting that back. There is also no way i can get back those crucial years if i wanted a family…now i am past a reasonable age it will always be harder..

I have had quite a few health issues this year, it has made me realise my age and situation…so my main priority is to make money..there is no time to look for some stupid guy who will do the same thing again to me..thats where i am at now.

Its hard to see the clients sometimes who have such a priveledged life, a committed husband, lots of money, kids and so much while others have so little…I dont want their lives…but i just wish for that one part of someone who gets me, ive never met that person! I guess i have to have a great sense of humor about it…because strangely or not, couples are very rude and nosy about single women’s lives..they want to know everything and assume so much too. Its annoying. I wish i had a way of telling them where to shove it.