Anita:

Thank you for taking the time to respond to my posts, I always appreciate you taking the time to do so.

As my anger is already beginning to subside- my anger never does last too long- I can begin to move past this event. Instead, I will use it as the fuel I need to kick things back into gear and plunge into my studies, as well as my newfound friendships.

I forgive him for the pain he has given me, and I can understand where he is coming from, wherever he is coming from. Even if I may never understand his true motives, I choose to appreciate the time we had, however short-lived it was. I truly think he is a soul in tremendous pain who doesn’t believe he deserves much, if anything, and I hope one day he can find peace within himself and his past… and I hope one day he is able to find someone else to love, someone he will not run away from. But until then I suppose this is the way things must be.

I guess, in a way, one lesson to be taken might include no matter how much you try to fool-proof things, there is still the chance that it won’t work out as well as you hope. It might- but you also might have to learn to rebound from undesirable results. The important thing is to not give up that one day it may work out for the best after all. But in that rebound you get to learn how strong you are and grow in ways you didn’t expect. Kind of like a continuing polishing of your character, in a sense.

I will carry all of this with me moving forward from here.