Dear Monica:

Back to clear thinking following some distress/decline about fifteen hours ago in the recent posts, following the very clear thinking post, the one ending with your gift to me. And so it goes, clarity and some confusion, distortions, back to clarity. This is part of the process of understanding reality.

There are a few things for you to learn from this relationship and post relationship, so that you can have a healthier mind and a better life. One of many things to learn is what you mentioned in your last post, your rush to get married (and at nineteen!). One of many is to work on not apologizing and not presenting yourself as less worthy than the man in the relationship. Over time maybe you can process all the things you can learn and put them into practice. It is an informal education that is most valuable.

anita