Anita,

I feel quite ok these days. I am doing fine.

Thanks for being happy for me, I appreciate it.

It is just that I have one thought that I cannot shake off : me being a failure.

Call me delusional or whatever, but I was genuinely thinking that maybe I could have been the next first lady of South Korea, that I was going to be someone important someday.

It sounds very weird and far off but Gyunnie gave me that security and validity that I WAS someone.

I am no one now in a sense.

How can I replace this sense of “identity” loss and security loss that I used to get from him?

I do not want any man to validate my position in the society, but I am having a hard time letting those thoughts go.

-Monica