Hi Anita,  I am used to people thinking they can tell me how it is, or tell me what to do. Its because i have a “soft” face. And psychologically speaking i have learnt that it means that people will always challenge me more than others. I am the kind of person who is approachable. Because people think i wont hurt them.

Today i was openly mocked by some family in a supermarket, i cant tell you why but it hurt of course! I went back to my car and looked in the mirror..there was nothing i can imagine that was wrong apart from maybe i was red in the face because it is hot right now. I am not overly fat, not bad looking, not dressed badly, the only thing possible to mock would be my face right? so either i have a VERY expressive face…or there was something on it..but they really laughed, not once but twice…in my face. why? and how am i supposed to react? i dont get it. Im tired of this stupid game in life…im getting old..too old for them to notice me.

My least favourite colleague also make a snide comment at me recently that was plain mean..about me not being important. there was no reason for it or retort to something i had said…he just came out with it and left me in shock.

My ex also is flirting with me and wants to meet up..i have no one else in my life of course. But the horror of how he was hangs over me. I have the texts that he sent me while he was involved with someone else and didnt care. What a wild surprise that didnt work out, she turned out to be exactly as my instinct predicted. He has not apologised or even tried to understand. The sad thing is that i think he is just bored and thinks i will react…there is no love there although of course i wish there was..i know im nothing special to him.

what am i supposed to do with these UNWANTED messages? how do other people cope? and why cant i strike back? something polite in me cant do it.