What resonated with me about your post is that I know and understand the concept of monogamous relationships, I see people around me in them and I see them happy. But i feel they’re happy because they’ve experienced things in life. I feel they’re comfortable with the choice they’ve made and the sense of finality attached to it because they’ve seen and experienced the different things. It’s not about x number of people, it’s about not just one. It’s like I’m on The Price is Right and I’ve made my decision on the first even before I’ve seen what’s behind the other doors. And my girlfriend has seen the other doors and she knows that this is what’s right for her, that this is what she chooses. I’ve never had and will not have enough information to go on and feel like I’ve made an informed decision. I feel if she hadn’t hooked up, I would’ve been fine with her being the only person I’ve been with even though I wouldn’t have been the only person she’s been with because the fact she was with someone before me never ever bothered me.