Good Morning Rox, Thank you for your message, you are correct, I know nothing would change my ex is who she is and I know that whoever she ends up with the same will happen again and again.  She was the same with her best friend of 18 years who’s mum went on the same journey as my dad.  She gave her friend little or no support.

I’ve learnt to trust my gut feelings from now on.

It’s the first time in 10 months that any thoughts like this have happened.  Yes, I was madly in Love with my ex, yet I couldn’t get my head around her choices as I would never do any of the above to anyone, even if they were my enemy.  When people talk about what happened with us, I still make excuses for her, yet if one of my friends were to write what I wrote, I’d be saying are you mad?

I have to admit, as the year went on, my heart stopped being in it also and for the last few months, I’d emotionally removed myself for the relationship myself.

Writing my message above cleared my head and put last year where it should be, back in the past, it’s put me back on track.  It’s also shown me that writing my thoughts down either here on in general is a great way to clear my head.

My new lady is brilliant, well rounded, loving, funny and beautiful in every way. We have a great relationship and know where we want to be and want to go.  I am so looking forwards to our future together and she is going to get all of me.  We are friends and confidents, there isn’t that intensity there and other outside influences which makes it so easy.  I’m a calmer, happier person, probably more than I have ever been in my whole life.

Thanks for the advice, it’s much appreciated.