Gagan,

I hope my message finds you well. I ask that before you respond to our replies reach out to this helpline, only if you feel comfortable. Here is the number: 1-800-784-2433, these people are extremely helpful and I often use their services. This service is free and you do not have to reveal who you are, just allow them to be your sounding board. Now back to the discussion at hand, by the tone of things it sounds as if you have a deep love and care for this woman and she shares the same point of view, she also definitely values your opinion too. But take a step back and read everything that you have written… you have pushed her away and only you know why. Pushing her away is not a bad or a good deed on your end, but you must understand the reality of why you did it to begin with before your life changing event. Were you scared to be with her? did you feel as if you had no right? these are just examples of what you may have felt. However, I encourage you to reflect on this before professing how you feel about her, if you choose to do so.

Sending love to you.