Anita, I wish I had the answer to “why and how was I so sure of the possibility”. Even during the time we were together, I knew that she was the best partner I could ever ask for. Perhaps, I wasn’t ready for the commitment. But, I told her the day she said
Yes to the other guy. But she had already made her decision at that point. This morning, she texts me and says that she misses me very much and that she “needs” to see me. I know she still wants to be with me, but she can’t. I am looking 50 years ahead of me and thinking of the life I could’ve built with her. It’s a feeling of a thousand elephants on my chest. Will I ever be able to love again?