That was incredibly insightful Anita, I thought about it and asked the questions, what am I really trying to catch up to? In reality there’s nothing to catch up to, I am taking a path that is my own, and I want to do it the right way and continue to heal and grow throughout my life as we all are.  That gave me a lot of good perspective on points that I had put myself down on.

Wow Poppyxo, are stories are very similar, thank you so much for sharing yours with me. I can relate on so many levels. It’s amazing how much I ignored his bad traits, because I believed in us so much. I thought he was the one too, because he was the only  “one” I had encountered who made me feel safe and loved. I think that’s why his actions at the end were so surprising, he had always believed in us or so I thought.  My heart does yearn to love someone, but I have plenty of precautions. I am trying to accept the fact that there’s a possibility of get hurt again, but if the next time happens hopefully I will be a stronger individual.

Interview yes haha, I won’t settle again. I forced myself to look past any issues because he was there for me. This post has given me hope that I can perhaps find someone with all the qualities I look for in a partner and who will accept my questions and anxiety with open arms.  Nope I wouldn’t buy something I didn’t like, it’s amazing how we yearn  for someone that was bad for us, but the door to healing is always open and I choose to take that leap. Thank you so much for these book recommendations! I’m an avid reader how did you haha, so excited for your relationship, enjoy every moment.