Dear Anita,

Thank you for everything.

In the past, during conflicts, I remember apologizing most of the time for an argument or something. In fact, I do not recall any time when she admitted that she might be wrong. Made me think that she was always right. She still says that she is always right. Whenever we had arguments, I would be the one reaching out and hugging her and  apologizing.

She probably hung up on me several times when I refused to spend more time with her if I was with a friend or family. She would get mad that I do not prioritize her as much as she does.

On a side note, before she made up her mind about the other guy, I told her once that the guy is so lucky to have her. When I said that to her, she said, “If you say that, how can I go to him. You think so highly of me. What if the guy doesn’t love me as much.” I still had the chance to stop her. I guess I’m trying to understand what stopped me from stopping her. Why did I not step up and acted like an adult? Why did I let her go so easily when I knew that she was everything that made me happy over the last few years?