Dear Anita,

I slept much better than before last night. It wasn’t perfect, but it was a great improvement. When I woke up this morning, the whole thought of her sleeping with this other guy creeped up my head. I tried to push the thought away but it just wouldn’t go. She usually texts me every morning. Today she didn’t. I feel her drifting apart second by second. I feel alone! I feel like I need her, even though it is not right for me. I know the this back and forth feeling will remain for a while, but I think it will disappear one day. I am taking it day by day, and when she moves away physically in just a week or so, things will change. I hope they change for the better. I hope I don’t feel lost and hopeless!