Dear Anita,

By “unconditionally”, I meant to say that she would call me on the evenings to see what I wanted to eat that night. She would cook for me. She would make sure if I was going through something bad, that she was with me and even took off from work various times to be with me to comfort me. But, our disagreements and conflicts happened sometimes and I was the one apologizing every single time. That was kind of given. Also made me think that perhaps I was always wrong. I still sometimes believe that.

On the other hand, I was talking to a friend about the same thing and he said that if we were actual couples that I would not apologize every single time and that I would have broken off. I only apologized because deep down I knew that I did not want anything more. Which is absolutely true. But on the same token, if I actually took it seriously, I might ended up working on it with her and making it work.