Dear wildoceanflower:

You wrote: “i find human behaviour repulsive and thus, interesting like a scientist dissecting an ant”-

but you are human too. You are not a species of a different type. Your behavior is human too.

If you were a scientist dissecting an ant, and the ant stands for all the people who mistreat you, then I think you are not doing a good job dissecting. A scientist keeps an open mind about the result of his dissection and experiments otherwise. He or she may have a hypothesis, an educated guess as to the results, but to be a competent scientist, one has to be open to the hypothesis being wrong.

You are not open to such a possibility. You state the results before the dissection, you already believe you know what is in that ant.

Part of what you believe is true, I am sure. Some people are nosy and rude. But not all people and not all the time. And if you do draw attention by your looks only, there must be a reason other than what you describe as normal look or being good looking. A very out of the ordinary dress could draw such attention as you describe, a glittery, shiny very short red dress and high heels in a supermarket will draw attention, for example.

anita