Dear Wanderlust16:

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Regarding this thread, my thoughts: when he sees you he is on vacation, time away from his life. After all, these are his vacations, involving travel and they happen rarely. During vacation people do what they normally don’t do, and so, he does, on his vacations, what he normally doesn’t do. People who work full time, go home, watch TV, have dinner, go to bed, next day, work etc., when they are on vacation their schedule changes drastically, no work whatsoever, they lie down on the beach all day, eat differently, etc.

He told you that he doesn’t want a relationship, not outside his vacations, I figure. During his vacations he is loving to you, in the context of … his vacations.

For you, the relationship exists beyond his vacations. For him, the relationship is limited to his vacations. Why haven’t you slept well in the last two months- maybe it has to do with your belief that your meeting him a few years ago was fated (“I feel that our meeting was fated”)- would you like to elaborate on what you mean by it, the nature of that fate?

anita