I am so in Love with this man. I realise we both have our faults and there is work to do. But I don’t know how I’m going to be without him now! He was my best friend and I adore him. I can’t imagine ever loving another man as much as I love him now. I don’t know what to do, my body aches without him, I can’t take the thought of never seeing him again. I can’t believe I’ve lost him and I hate the way I handled things, I know ‘this can never be fixed and I’m finding that extremely hard to come to terms with. I’m in so much pain, everyday hurts and it’s not getting easier.