Dear Eliana,

Thank you for checking up on me. I’ve not been that well with this whole situation. I’m sorry to not follow your’s and Anita’s advice on not meeting with the girl again. We met multiple times over the past few days. Actually, some of her stuff is at my apartment and I have to be cordial with her before she leaves for another city and takes her stuff. I will be honest with you. What I’m doing is exactly what an insect does attracted to the light. I will get burned even more. But the reality is that the time we spend together feels great. I can sleep well, I eat well, I have zero anxiety, we laugh together – it is an ideal relationship with an expiry date of a few more days. It is as if a perfect storm is brewing. When she leaves for good, I will be blown into a dark place – I’m aware of it, but like a mad man, I am drawn to her for whatever time remains. I will suffer for sure. I will hit another bottom but for time-being it feels like peace. She is moving at the end of this week. I will probably see her twice or more before she leaves. I will tell you what happens next. I can’t help it. I’m sorry!