Dear Anita,

So kind of you to think about me. Thank you for everything.

By going near the flame, the moth essentially loses its wings. I do feel like a loser doing this, but for the time-being it feels wonderful. Its Tuesday today and she is moving by the end of the week at the latest. Where will I find the strength to move past it? I have gone through incredible pain before but this is another level of darkness. How will I get out of it? I wish I never let myself fall so badly for her, or if I did, then I should have taken it to the next step. Despite her shortcomings, she is the only one I need right now. We all have flaws, and she has hers. I do not desire perfection, I desire care and understanding.

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