Dear Carla:

You wrote: “I don’t really care if my parents want me or not”- I have no doubt that you used to care, as a child. A child cares, a whole lot.

You wrote: “We were your standard family”- you “don’t really remember (your) childhood”. Interestingly, I don’t remember much of my own. Is not remembering the standard, I wonder? Otherwise, what can be standard about a family one does not remember.

What you know about the child that you were is what you were told, not necessarily true. What if it is not you who were the difficult one, what if it was your parents who were difficult.

Indeed, light needs to be shed and soon enough this can start to happen, gradually, in quality psychotherapy. I hope you post again.

anita