Dear HiCrunchy:

You wrote: “It makes me think there are different levels of  love and I just fell into the deepest one of all”- there are different levels of emotional attachments, yes. Reads like you were very attached to him and still are. Attached to the idea of him, at this point.

And it reads to me that you otherwise avoid becoming attached to men, maybe to people, men and women. Not surprisingly, because you know how much it hurts to separate or be rejected when one is attached.

Some people get to feel better when they quickly replace the object of their attachment. You are not in the habit of doing that.

I  hope you post again with your thoughts and feelings.

anita