Hey Anita,

I cant quite iron out if your saying “even though your birthday isn’t a holiday” or “even though IT IS on a holiday”

My birthday is the end of September so no actual holidays occur around it.

But growing up my birthday was never really a special thing. It was “acknowledged” but I never had birthday parties growing up. I think I had one birthday celebration growing up as a child when I was maybe 4. I was too young to remember really; that says the most.

My family usually throws a dollar bill at any issue truthfully . They really don’t care about your feelings. We aren’t rich but we are pretty well to do across the board. So my relatives usually would just give me money, a lot of them wouldn’t call or anything. Even now they don’t. But it was only the ones who I saw often like my Aunt or grandfather.

I don’t have a very close relationship with anyone in my family. It used to be my mom but that has dwindled away over the past 2-3 years. I have a brother we are more tolerable of each other now than ever before in our childhoods. We really used to not care for each others company really. But even though now we mentally are on a different playing field we get along but still rarely ever talk or see each other. I really don’t have a person that I can turn to in my family and be transparent with.

I just kind of felt like my birthday didn’t matter. So when I came to college and my life changed I told myself well shoot if no one else will do it I’ll do it. To most of my friends and people who have gotten to know in college really acknowledge my birthday like its a holiday. My best friends literally take off work from their jobs lol. I always throw a huge party and I hangout with my friends and I go to dinners and maybe get a few gifts. My birthday from 2011-2016 are really some of the best memories I have.

This year I didn’t really celebrate my birthday.  That really bothered my mom, to add. Ironic to the fact that she never really helped in the celebrations of my birthdays growing up. She felt like it was because of Glen. You read the above stuff about what went on. He did kind of ruin it…or well better yet I LET HIM.

I just didn’t feel it for some reason. I was like “my birthday is cancelled this year.” I saw my mom to appease her and another friend of mine and that’s it.

My friends were really disappointed when that was my responses to their pre-birthday plan text.