Dear  howtoloveme:

I couldn’t find online any evidence whatsoever that masturbation can cause or increase the chances of testicular cancer. I read a few male teenagers concerned  about this, but no professional input on the matter. I read  positive health consequences of male masturbation, no negatives. (I suppose one can bruise oneself that way, or maybe cause urinary infection, perhaps, if using  a dirty hand).

You can schedule a medical appointment with a medical doctor, a specialist, a urologist perhaps, and get as definite an input as  you can about whether there is any evidence to what concerns you so. You can tell that medical doctor all the details of your masturbation history. (You wrote that you can message personally with more details, but I am not a medical doctor, for one, and I will feel uncomfortable, here or elsewhere with such details).

People focus on the sexual as  proof of their … badness. It is a common focus. But the belief in one’s badness is often formed earlier and irrelevant to sexual practices. Would you  like to elaborate on why your family was of no support to you when you were sick, at 25, going through such a difficult time?

anita