Dear Ben:

Reads to me that you grew up (and currently living with) parents who were not honest with each other and with you about their feelings. Maybe they made statements that were untruths, contradicting what you witnessed and felt was true, and that confused you. Maybe you asked them questions and their answers were lies. And that confused you.

And confused, your analytical mind works overtime trying to get the truth out of the messy massive pile of truth and lies.

Does this reads true to you?

anita