RoxySue, thank you very much for your reply. While everyone above made some valid points it is hard to hear most of it and that’s been another one of my problems. Nobody can relate and it’s really hard to hear advice from others who haven’t been in a similar situation. Being told that I am intimidating and he is scared to communicate with me has been weighing on me to hear because it is completely untrue. I have swallowed some tough pills and I remind him not to hold back and communicate openly. Maybe the part of he is scared to say something to hurt me more may be true, but I remind over and over please never hide any feelings from me. I can reassure he does not. I will be turning only 22 in April and I have been with him since I was 18. I love him very much, he is beyond wonderful to me in every other aspect, so I am just hurt and confused. It kills me to think that lack of a love life can so easily tear apart everything. It’s so easy to keep telling yourself it will get better next time, until a year later no changes have been made. He has been staying else were and respecting my space I need and now 4 days later I am able to look at him and calmly be in the same house. I have A LOT going on in other aspects in my life to do with family that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy, my father is an addict, and this week in particular has been the most mentally draining and exhausting. I am really trying my hardest to take this one day at a time and make some big decisions. I can not think of questions off the top of my head, honestly my mind is shot. But if you have any advice, words of wisom from one person to another who has been through it, absolutely feel free to share.