I understand the beginning of your passage. I don’t like it either. Simple as that.

I press the issue so not at all that I never got any context into what he says and his motivations.

I wonder what he would say in response to it even more so now.

His response would give me, (I don’t know about you) A LOT of insight.

He could say “Yea I watch you and what? you sneaky” that’s a whole issue!

Or he could say “Dude I just be joking when I say those things, Its not even like that”

Yea his violence level is non existent. I have done the worst I am capable of and saw his reaction then with Hunt. There really isn’t anything I could think of that would push him over the edge like that to me. Doubtful it would get there for any reason.

But I am indeed in a difficult situation. The consistent depression clouds my judgment. Even in a sense that in other times they would more so be associated with triggering my overwhelming depression like traits back then after. I would be normal enough that guys would do stuff; that’s life. Sometimes girls let boys do things they shouldn’t; but at a point I would have enough & make the tough choice and not deal with people anymore then.

I do have a lot invested in him and our relationship.

To make changes is hard. To see someone isn’t going to give you what you want or turn into the best person for you and decide to stop. Ending a relationship is hard..but being hurt is harder. John was by far my easiest breakup (still a lot) just because I only had pieces of him. But when you hold someone’s whole  heart in your hands and still have to decide to do what is best for you it is a pain staking task trying to figure out if your doing what is right.

On a scale of 1-10 (10 being knowing what you know) I would say average they know probably a teetering 6/7.

• This reply was modified 6 years, 10 months ago by Jenny Lynn.