To VJ:

“Realize deeply that not forgiving is hurting none other than you.”

I think I should repeat this as a mantra or meditate on this, for some reason it wont sink into my soul even though I have it in my head.

To anita:

Luckily my mother is not abusing me anymore. She ‘apologized’ by telling me she was sorry, but she never truly took responsibility for what she did and the effect it had on my life (she can be extremely self-centered, but at least I got something). That is completely accurate that seeing her and hearing her constantly makes me feel upset and angry, but I mostly spend my time in my room or with my little brother anyway. The problem is that I unfortunately dropped out of high school because I was a bit suicidal at the time, and I don’t want to leave home because my little brother and father are the only two people I really have.

It may sound a bit silly, but I do have a plan to develop a video game to earn some money. Indie developer seems like the only job I can do by myself (composing, art, and coding), and I have some experience from when I was a child. I may decide to move away if I ever join a bigger team after gaining more job experience.

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