Dear Matt:

Unfortunately, even if your mother no longer beats you up or is expressing aggression against you in the present, the emotional memories of her having done so in the past get triggered again and again by merely seeing her, by hearing her voice. This has been my experience. I don’t think we can prevent this from happening, it happens naturally and automatically. It is a consequence of having been abused.

For as long as past abused is being triggered by being in the presence of the person who abused us, we can’t do anything but… stay away from that person as much as possible, best, not being in their presence at all. And so I do hope you move out somehow, sometime, soon.

I don’t know anything about game developing. I hope you research what you intend to do and if it is possible, that you make a practical plan for it to happen.

anita