I think I’ve just been pretty unlucky and probably with my confidence being quite low around my illness I feel like no one decent will want me and I’m not enough or not worthy almost.

And I wonder if that is why I have drawn these men to me but I don’t know how to change that.

This is just knocked my confidence even more, because I’m not well I don’t have many friends to support me I can’t work and don’t socialise a huge amount.

I know I need to do some work on myself to have more confidence in myself around my illness and being not wanted but I don’t know where to begin.